“My heart needs a surgeon, my soul needs a friend, so I run to the Father again and again and again and again.” ~ Run to the Father by Cody Carnes
The last two years have been difficult to say the least. Trying to process through the grief of losing my best friend, dealing with other friends who say they’re going to be there for me and then they aren’t, making decisions or acting in different ways based off my grief, getting into a car accident and totaling the rental car I was driving, losing my great grandma only a few months after losing Heather, and dealing with everything Covid related. Seeing division, fear, and opinions tear nations, relationships, and families apart. Seeing people be more afraid of living their lives than not. These past two years have been unlike anything I ever imagined I’d have to go through.
As we’re about to reach the 2 year anniversary of losing Heather, and I reflect on everything I’ve experienced these last couple years, I can’t help but think of this Cody Carnes song “Run to the Father.” I’m sitting here feeling like a piece of my heart is broken, missing my best friend so much as I think of all the adventures we experienced and all the ones that we won’t be able to experience together. “My heart needs a surgeon and my soul needs a friend.” People will disappoint though, people can’t heal the heart, people can’t fill the void – only God can. God is the ultimate healer, protector, comforter, and friend.
As I’m struggling with missing Heather, I’m realizing I need to run to Jesus, and I’ve been running to Jesus. However, I haven’t been running to Him as much as I should. Community is huge and most definitely needed but you can’t put all your stock in friendships and people because they’re temporary, God is infinite. People can’t fill the void you have, only God can. So as I’m feeling broken right now remembering the friendship Heather and I had and missing it, I’m going to run to the Father because he can heal my heart and be a friend to my soul.
I pray that as y’all are seeing the division in our lives, as friendships or relationships are falling apart, and as our lives don’t go the way we planned, that you run to the Father also. He’s waiting for us with open arms and he wants to be the one we run to. 💜